It's been awhile since I have been on here but my life never seems to slow down and my problems never go away. I'm so tired of the pain I live in I don't know what to do anymore or where to turn. I've had 3 neck fusion surgeries, 1 artificial lumbar disc replacement, 1 lumbar fusion surgery several lumbar nerve blocks, several epidurals, physical therapy, and so much medication that doesn't seem to give me my life back. I want to bee again and I know my kids miss there old mom. I never dreamed at 35 I would be in the shape I am today. My surgeon says the only thing left to try and take my pain away is a scs but my pain managent doctor says he's sending me to a ns and to tell you the truth I don't know what to do anymore because I've gave up hope I mean why try of nothing has taken away my pain and problems why go on to new stuff? I guess I'm really looking for a shoulder to cry on that feels like me.