I didnt think i ever post my relationship issues here but luckly this website is helpful and has threads for such circumstances aswell. This post will make me look bad but i have seriously changed as i know i have been an immature little kid!
Anyway lately i took it upon myself to talk to ex girlfriends recently. I was on a night out with one of my ex girlfriends last week..it went really well.
Anywayz i have this other ex girlfriend and its always on my mind. When i was young i went out with this girl,we met at a local disco and at first we hit it off. At the time i broke up with a girl but it was a couple of months before that. Anywayz this girl at the disco we suddenly went out cus i knew she was interested in me and i quickly pursued it.
I broke up with her years ago and if i have to honest because i found out she wasnt popular with the popular girls in school which i hung around with. Also i kinda went out with her cus im kind of implusive (i just do things in the moment sometimes without thinking!).
She was a member of our local choir church and was just a simple nice gal but not very popular!. I was popular in school but was shy towards approaching women so the pressure of hooking up with women and keeping my somewhat stupid reputation in school was high & lonely at times. Anyway i just agreed to go out with this girl out of the blue and then days after i dumped her,giving her and friends constant excuses.
In a nut shell this girl doesnt have a easy life. She has a disabled sister (which is very smart by the way but it still cant be easy),wasnt popular in school and her mother died a couple of months..she suffered from alcholism also.
I now suddenly after all these years feel the need to sit down and talk to her,explain my actions,tell her im sorry and tell her i have been a complete idiot!. The only thing that stops me is that its been too long since ive talked to her,im scared and frankly i dont think i deserved to contact her because of my previous shallow actions!.
Any of advice would be helpful people and try not to judge me..i admit i was stupid as a child but ive grown up trust me!. thanks