Hi again everybody. Today I had one of the worst experiences of my life at the doctor.
My mom and I have been fed up with the way doctors are handling my situation. I have had low back pain, leg pain, and feet pain for 5 years and I'm only 20. Recently I've had trouble urinating as well. I have had MRIs, CT scans, and X-rays that show nothing. I have gone to ortho spine surgeons, neurologists, and now I'm seeing a spine specialist. I have had injections and 4 rounds of PT that only hurt me but they continue to make me do it! I have to say I'm getting sick of this.
Well today I went to my spine specialist hoping that today would be the day that they ordered some test and then they would find what's wrong with me. I had all my questions ready to go and was ready to ask him about all of the procedures everyone on here has suggested that I have done. (Discograms, flexion/extension x-rays, standing MRIs, etc.)
He absolutely dismissed everything I said. He said none of those tests would show anything and that he wouldn't order them. I told him that many people have been in my position and had those procedures done and they finally found something and he scoffed at me and talked down to me.
I brought up the fact that I have trouble peeing when my pain gets very bad. He didn't care! He said well you can see a urologist but they won't see anything. I'm really not kidding.
You guys might not believe this because it is so outrageous but it is all true.
Ok anyway, last time I saw him he told me he was so sure that it was my muscles causing the pain. (It's not) So that's when he made me do PT. Well I did PT for about a week and it made my pain even worse. So today...and this is the part that just devastated me...he acted like it was in my head!!! He said I am depressed! I'm a shy person and I hate confrontation but I freaked out at him when he said that. I said I am NOT depressed and he said oh really? What do you know about depression? Tell me how you know you aren't depressed. Well I'm a psychology major and I know that doesn't mean much but depression is one of the main things we learn about so I just put him in his place and told him specific reasons why I am absolutely not depressed.
He also said it was anxiety making my back hurt. And that he needs to refer me to a psychologist to deal with my "anxiety" and to figure out why I would fake a thing like this.
Oh and he implied that I was using my back pain to get out of class and he said that people deal with pain differently...implying that other people could deal just fine with my level of pain. Um, I take tramadol around the clock and still have pain. I can't go to the mall, I can't go to class, and when I do feel good enough to go, the seats kill me to sit in. I don't go out on the weekends because I can't...and believe me I WANT TO. I live in a college town and I'm missing out so much on my college experience because of my back. It is infuriating to me to hear him say that it is in my head and that I just use it as an excuse to get out of things. It was like a stab in my heart.
And believe me, I explained to him how I felt. I told him all of this. I'm sick of going to the doctors and have them talk down to me or not try any procedures just because the patient suggested it. Do they ever think that maybe they are wrong?! Don't they know I know my body better than anyone else? I really feel if they did more tests they could find something wrong with my back, but he won't because he is sure there isn't anything wrong with me...so why do the tests?
Oh I also said I would like to be referred to a pain specialist because that is what so many of you have said to do because they tend to be more caring and will do lots of tests and they really try to figure it out. He said, and I quote, "All pain doctors do is stick needles anywhere a needle will fit." UGH! I even told him about this website and said well why have so many people like me gone through the same things and then they finally go to the pain doctor and then that doctor figures out what's wrong? He didn't have an answer for me.
Well thank you for letting me vent. I just have to ask...what now? I did everything that you all have suggested. I need a new doctor. My mom is going to try to get my family doctor to refer me to a pain doctor but that will take months. My spine doctor is not likely to continue refilling my pain meds. I'm so frustrated. I just want to be a normal 20 year old.
Any advice or support would be sooo appreciated. And please don't think I'm whining about this. This is really what happened, it sounds ridiculous because it is, but I assure you it is true. I wish it wasn't. I came out in tears and probably more angry than I've ever been.