It's been ages since I posted on SH. I'm having a heck of a winter & this week has been very bad. My sciatic nerve pain level is what I consider 'chainsaw' level! Ready to cut the leg off level! Of course I wouldn't do it, but my friend with like pain understands where I'm coming from. I say it to get my point across to people, especially those who don't understand. I've had nerve pain for 11 years, so am not new to pain. I've a listed history. I'm on the usual array of meds & 1800mg of Neurontin, as well as pain meds. I've tried the whole array of meds through the years. I'm at the super fed up stage. I've been taking the max amount of my meds, of what I can take this past week. The pain has been so nasty. I also find the cold & dampness of our winters are just torture on my nerve pain & OA.
To top things off, I've had bad insomnia for over a week. Falling asleep after 5am, sleeping only several hours. Pain often wakes me. I'm just so flipping tired, lethargic, aggrevated, you name it. Yes, I take Imovane at bedtime. I took it 5 hours ago. Guess it isn't working!! I do my ritualistic routine at bedtime, chamomile tea, relaxation music, meds. and so on.
Sorry, I'm venting, I'm so darn tired, frustrated. I'm not at newbie with pain. Just one who is experienced & so darn tired & worn out. Wish there was some answers besides take this or that medication. They cause their own problems. No new answers out there. That's frustrating to. I don't want more drugs. That always seems like the easiest answer. Need more research in this field. Different options besides medications, physio & all the other things I've tried!!
I am just SO fed up!!! I need some sleep!! I'm tired, I'm so very tired! Just SO fed up of 11 years of you know what!! Sorry, I just need to vent. I often feel so alone in this journey. I'm lucky I do have 1 good long distant friend who is supportive. I'm just very, very tired. Just need a little support tonight. Need sleep. Thanks to anyone out there listening. Sorry I haven't posted in a long time. Maybe I'll try to sleep again!!