Hello. I am a new poster here and this is going to be really super long, so I'm sorry in advance. I am 31, and up until a year ago was a fairly normal married guy with a normal life.
That has all changed now.
A year ago, I was in a minor car accident and something must have happened. All though there is no direct evidence that the accident caused this, it is just too much of a coincidence. I rear-ended someone going about 40, well not just anyone, an F-350 in my little Taurus. The frame of my car hit the trailer hitch on the truck who was at a complete stop. The truck did not move. My frame buckled pushing the engine back as far as it would go. I might have been better off hitting a brick wall. My head was turned to the right and I distinctly remember my head snapping all the way forward then back. I really didn't think too much of it. Weeks later I started getting dizzy; really, really dizzy.
I fell several times, once off my chair at work, once I hit the coffee table on my way down, and once I fell down the stairs.
I just thought I was losing it. It started out as a few 30 min. spells a day, then a few more, then they would last for hours. Then it was almost all day, every day.
At this point I was taking Lyrica for something totally unrelated. I was having mild chronic all over pain that I SWEAR was from these damn new class antibiotics I took for three weeks in a row due to wisdom teeth removal (that it another saga).
Anyways, the Dr. told me to stop taking Lyrica right away so I did. As soon as the Lyrica started to fade away, the pain started. A bad, ridiculous pain that has been my nemesis for 9 months. It has destroyed my life, totally.
It starts in the neck, a severe, stabbing upward pain that burns, and throbs, and sears. It goes through cycles. Usually 60-80% of my day now is spent lying nearly flat so my muscles do not support my head at all. To do so would be a major mistake. It feels like someone is stabbing me over and over again with an ice pick in an upward way starting parallel to about C-3 but two inches away from the spine (on the left side only) and stabbing north but towards my eye. I am hyper-sensitive to light and sound. The headache that accompanies it is excruciating. I used to have a 0-10 pain scale that was totally different. The pains I used to feel wouldn't even register anymore.
I am unable to work. I feel totally useless.
Our house is in foreclosure and our cars our in Jeopardy of being repossessed. My life now consist of watching TV and sleeping. Some days it is so bad I can not even care for myself, which is embarrassing to say. I can't even make myself food to eat. The relationships I used to have are falling apart. My marriage is in shambles.
The kicker: They don't really know what is wrong.
MRI's and MRA's negative.
CT's nothing significant.
I have had 3 occipital injections and 5 C-2 facet blocks.
I get a few weeks of "duller than normal" pain and then it goes right back to the same song and dance.
I am on 600mg of Neurontin and 80mg of Norco and 1600mg of Ibuprofen daily just to take the edge off.
I can't take it anymore. Chronic pain takes every last ounce of your energy and leaves you with nothing left to give.
Sometimes I feel like just giving up and being free.
Please, if there is anyone out there who knows what is wrong or who has been through this or something, let me know. I don't know how much longer I can last. The only time I am happy anymore is when I am asleep because I can be "normal" again.