:< Hello all online spine family! I am a newbie, but as I put at the bottom, I've been suffering from constant level 8-10 pain for the past 5 months. I had one small break for 3 1/2 weeks after a caudal lumbar epidural, it was the only effective injection treatment out of the three since Jan. I am not too sure how much I can go into so I can encourage Edited THIS WEBSITE IS MY FINAL HOPE...otherwise i don't think i can realistically (no matter what it is i still want to do in life) continue with the pain, the rejection from my support network of only 2 people, my folks who pay for every move i make. (control issues maybe? lol.
I need help, I live in a suburb, a town in Surrey, England. I am an american, mom from the midwest, dad is from greece. my father is strict and had a bulging disc that cleared up back when he was an athlete, whereas, i smoke (now to distract myself from this), can't exercise anymore as it is dangerous, i am so exhausted from no sleep, and i just last night broke my fall from trying to put a sock on in the bathroom with my nose by going head first into the sink. i am desperate for an invasive procedure that could help even if there is risk, as I was afraid of the knife 5 months ago, and now i beg 9 its been 4 consultants now, for anything they think could have a hot at helping. no luck, no realistic advice or direct answers, i leave, they don't prescribe, they refuse to allow me to decide to take the risk as they just won't even try.
I cannot even sit down to use the toilet, i have to stand, and i limit all nutrition in order to not have to go. this week was the first time since maybe the age of six i could not get to the bathroom to pee, and i feel so ashamed. i have an old and very dead history of getting high when i was younger on vicodin. i wanted to fit in so bad, anyway, went to a legit rehab, worked my ass off, and it was easy to keep clean. now i have legitimate pain that makes me want to plan and end to it all-and i get no offers to prescribe ANY opiates beyond the lowest baby dose possible. I've never had these meds before, but they are sugar pills to me, as they don't even TOUCH the pain. no doctor offers to help operate, nor treat the pain with opiates aggressively ( i am a heavy girl as well), other than telling me to lose weight fast even though i've been struggling with obesity since very young,and i'm sure i'll always have to plan strict meals to lose and maintain.
writing too much i can feel it.
need a doctor who is reputable, you know and trust, isn't afraid to explore how to find a solution, or even the tiny sliver of improvement. also/OR a pain doctor who as i mentioned above will still put me in physical addiction of opiates until i am able to build strength and go back to physio and exercise until i get better or hear from a surgeon ready to go.
new to england, but i am crying as i finish this up, i am so afraid i will neverhear from anyone with any advice other than please don't hurt yourself. i'm not going to, not with a safe place for me to request/beg for advice from those who know or care?
thank you for your patience in reading this mess, i am sorry, so little sleep, and i am hoping i hear from someone anyone or everyone asap:) lol. thanks, take care!
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