As I learn more about my condition after not having had any internet during the previous 4 months of my injury
L3/L4 Lumbar Disc Herniation
(along with that diagnosis was of course DDD, Facet Joint Syndrome)
I had a second injury during my mild pain relief from the herniation due to a caudal lumbar epidural injection. It didn't do much, but to me it was a world of improvement!:)
Being injured during the epidural window, I was pretty banged up, but I was nervous, because I had no idea how it might have effected the already herniated disc. So, as I suspected, not too long afterward, the epidural wore off as quick as you can flip a light switch. Back to the beginning of THE PAIN!!! NOOOO! Next course of action was to see the next consultant/spine specialist asap, and all i had was the Rolling Stones to keep me in my state of zen while I keep perfectly still...i swear i don't know how we do it. lol. Anyway, the mri after the second (AND SERIOUSLY FAR MORE PAINFUL THAN THE FIRST! OUCH!)injury showed the disc had been pushed even further out, and toward the right side of the body. When I had epidural as well as a nerve root injection following the news, neither of them worked at ALL. I gave them both two weeks at least, but I knew I was going to be in for some darker days of pain at least for a while. The following consultant was the last my family would allow, my mother and father attended the appointment, and as i mentioned in a similar post (i think it takes a few tries for me to get any of my issues straight, as the pain is so horrible (you all know what i'm talking about) I to say the LEAST, have a very difficult time typing, no sitting, or FOCUSING on anything else no matter how desperate I am for any distraction. The surgeon did my physical exam and asked me to point/show him where the sciatic pain was. Oh, see, I failed again, sigh. Forgot to tell you that when the full on much more intense and excruciating pain came back after the caudal epidural #1 wore off, I developed sciatica through my left leg, and I was so terrified! Why is my body falling apart on me, I'm 29! Well, I guess I was injured on top of the DDD I had been oblivious to for years due to having not one symptom.(I suppose I'm a wimp with pain, but by now I doubt it) It was a screwy path from my lower back pain spot of origin, down to my huge left toe. Oh dear I need a pedicure someday, but I cannot do it myself anymore, as it would be so dangerous, can't reach the toes anymore, and last time i put on socks, i lost my balance and fell headfirst into the sink and broke my fall with my trusty bumpy bone of a greek nose, again, ouch. However, the pain was laughable compared to the left leg, butt cheek, toe, plus the disc...
After the physical exam he spent a while staring quietly at my 2nd most recent MRI, and looked puzzled. He said he didn't understand why I have sciatic pain at all in my left leg, as he said the mri shows it protruding on the right side. Hmmm. Is this really true doctor? He never could point it out, as I understand the anatomy and mri's look pretty self explanitory, but I had not even seen this one yet, and I was curious. He didn't point anything out, because I was too anxious about this increasing level of pain, and the fact it's now spreading to my left leg, down to the toe?! Plus, my neck is frustrating as well, even though my mobility gets much faster due to keeping active and physio, and swimming which i absolutely love:)....It was a painful visit, and it closed the book on surgery for my back pain with sciatica or not, apparently something is askew?? i've just spent several hours staring at mri's and exploring as much as i can about interpreting the images. One thing i did notice was that I've been leaning to the right since this began, but now I look VERY strange when I hobble around. I keep active and do my exercises at least twice a day, but I'm still afraid I'll be leaning to the right for the rest of my days. I saw on one view/section of the spine from abobe,, it does tilt toward the right/curve. I have no idea what it's from and this lack of sleep is making me wonder if I too am smarter than a...2 year old? Anyway I don't want surgery if i can avoid it and heal and once again stand up straight, sit down, and get some friggin SLEEP! i look (no matter how well groomed thanks to help from mom) like a night of the living dead, day of the dead, oh pick any of your favorite zombie flicks and I'm an extra in there somewhere, lol. Sorry, lame sense of humor, but trying desperately to avoid thinking about the other options i have to escape this nightmare...
Now, I'm being sent to a pain mgmt. specialist, which i hope is more promising than it sounds. I hope he doesn't move me back down the medicine line, when it was so rough climbing up to the meds i have now, which are just not cutting it...but i'm hopeful, still hopeful, an appointment is still promising!:)I am still scouring the internet for any further information regarding my condition, all of the consultant diagnosis, and afraid if i don't do something minor invasive, i'll end up having pain spread through the rest of my body. oh well. This has become more severe as far as the pain goes and the increasing number of other parts of my body affected by it.
No real plot to this story, just back here as it's my refuge since i was out of the hospital for other issues on friday. Life goes faster and faster outside, and I'm breaking down....my mom laughs at me because I'm most comfortable when I'm on my bed, or if its absolutely unavoidable and i have to sit in the car, in the doggystyle position. sigh. at least my mom gets a laugh break for all the moaning and yelling and crying i do every night and day.
about to head back down these stairs to go out for a smoke (I know, I know, but it's my one distraction that works for whatever reason other than the obvious) and hopefully i can come back up here and take a nice long peaceful....nap?
I miss the states.