Well Im 1yr out of surgery and life has had its ups and downs. Found out that this is how lifes going to be and need to deal with it. Doc says I have a long list of limitations but need to focus on what I can do. The problem is Im not dealing with my new life very well as per my conversation with my husband last night. He's very concerned about my sprialling downward depression and that I just dont seem interested in things like I use to be. I explained to him that Im not meaning to be mean its just that sometimes I just get tired of being in pain all the time. He knows that he cannot fully understand because he has not experienced what I have but says that you have 3 beautiful children who need their mother. He has asked me to see our pastor hopeing that this will snap me out of it for we are people of faith. I do believe in God and believe that everything happens for a reason so why am I so depressed? I just cant adapt to this new life. I cant be on my feet for longer than an hour without having to sit or lay down. When I go to my sons baseball games I have to sit in the car because the chairs are to hard and the cooler weather brings on muscle spasms which in turn brings on severe pain. I know that I would not be running marathons but thought my quality of life was going to be better than sitting on the couch all day with a heating pad. My husband says that he doesnt care that he has to do everything so why should I? I want to play with my kids and be intimate with my husband without crying all night in pain.I just feel so damn guilty for not being able to be a normal wife and mother. I have often thought of going to doc for an antidepressent but thats just a bandaid. How do you get to the route of the problem and fix it so I can get on with the rest of my life?Anyone Please tell me how you delt with these life changing issues, for I am at a loss.