I'm so glad I found this forum and there are lots of people out there like me. I am 24 and honestly feel like I'm 94. Here's my story:
In December or 2001 I was in my first car accident and suffered whiplash and bruised knee caps.
In January of 2002 I was rear-ended and suffered whiplash
March 2002- t-boned - whiplash, internal bleed
July 2002- rear ended on interstate - whiplash
October 2002- T-boned, totaled SUV - concussion, internal bleeding, ruptured discs T8-T10, started having migraines, whiplash
April 2007- side swiped- injured left shoulder
May 6th AND 8th, 2010- 2 different people decided not to look behind them and reversed into my car. 1st one was real bad, took out my whole drivers side, 2nd one no injuries.
I've been diagnosed with extensive nerve damage, unrepaired ruptured discs, my neck curves in the wrong direction and god knows what else. I have had numerous MRIs, EMGs, physical therapy, water therapy, CASH braces, massages, TENS, chiropractic treatments, etc etc etc...
Even with all of this I am still not in a state of "relief". Some months are better than others, but its getting worse. This back, neck and shoulder pain are unbearable. I have never thought of suicide until these past few months. I switched to a new PCP and have started seeing my PM doc again but they are at a loss. They won't send me to another neurosurgeon, the NS recommended an internal morphine pump and a spinal stimulator and I refused both because I was 16 and scared to death! I have begged for epidurals. Pain meds are NOT an option because my pain isn't that bad because I go to work and they will make me "loopy"(I go to work and no one talks to me anymore, I suffer the whole day and everyone feels sorry for me) I HATE IT! I want help of any kind. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared. I can't think straight. If I get a full hour of sleep its a blessing. I have switched PCPs and PM docs so many times I am labeled a "drug seeker and doctor hopper" Its so unfair. I would not switch my doctor if they actually listened to me and helped me even just a little bit. All they say is I'm young, it will go away.... not in 8 years it hasn't. I dropped out of high school because I could not sit in class and if I got up to stretch I was sent to detention. I am depressed. I am on Zoloft. I was recently diagnosed with tachycardia and premature ventricular contraction so I can not take ANY migraine medicine without risk of heart failure. Even my cardiologist said the heart problems were most likely due to my back and neck. What do I do? They know what the problems are but they refuse to help me! Tylenol might as well be a pez candy dispenser and I can't take celebrex or any NSAID because of my heart. Zanaflex and flexaril are a joke. The only thing I ever have any real relief on was Vioxx and that hasn't been an option in 5 years. I can't take it anymore. What do I have to do? I am not suicidal yet but I find myself thinking about it more and more. I couldn't do that to my family or dogs but I'm no use to them. I'm moody, I yell, I cry and they are all helpless because they can't help me anymore than they already have. I am single, I don't go out with friends because I can't. I don't drink because it causes more pain. I am on no drugs legal or illegal. I walk my 5 dogs daily. They are well trained and do not pull and walk at my space. I am 5'7, 145 lbs. I am mostly all lean muscle. My core couldn't get any stronger. Someone tell me there are more options. How do I get my doctors to listen? Thank you in advance~