I am still fairly new to the chronic pain issues. I have had 3 major surgeries since 2007. Fusions at both C4-C5, C6-C7, and L2 - S2. I still have major problems and constant pain. One thing I have noticed throughout all this is that my temper has changed dramatically. Where I used to be a very kicked back, easy going guy, I now have a tendency to just snap very quickly and with little to no provocation. I do my best not to yell at my family and what not but I feel the anger boiling up inside me like I've never felt before. My doctor started me on welbutrin and I think it helped a little bit but my wife complained that I seemed a little lethargic and she hates pills as well as doctors so I quit taking it. She complains about any pain meds, etc that I take as well. I have a spouse that has never in her life broken a bone or been in any sort of pain in her entire life aside from child birth and seems to have absolutely no tolerance whatsoever for me taking medications for my condition. I have a 68 year old father in law that still farms and works his guts out and I'm in pretty constant comparison.
I hope I don't offend anyone but as I think about it, I see what people who were / are tortured go through and why they break down mentally and the problems they have. Trying to use that sort of example to my better half and she believes I am overreacting to the extreme. I'm afraid my constant excruciating pain and inability to do about 75% of what I used to do is causing me to lose my mind. I really can't take it and don't know what to do. I am taking pain medications and they help but they don't help 24-7.
How do you all deal with the pain that never ever goes away? I think its really starting to get to me and if I use the medications that alter the mental state or anything else(wellbutrin, etc), I get the 3rd degree from my wife and I'm afraid she's passing the attitude on to my children. I know I need help but I don't know how to get the help I need and educate my wife at the same time.
Please Help! Thanks In Advance
P.S. Yes, my insurance sucks until I officially get on medicare.