My surgery was on March 1st, but on March 28 I was admitted back to the hospital with a wound infection. They decided to let my wound heal from the inside out by doing wet to dry dressings daily. Well here I am, three months later, and I'm still not healed. I'm just so tired of this. My back is soooo sore, and has blisters and scabs all over it from all the gauze and tape. I go to my surgeon every two weeks and I'm due to go back on Monday, but I really don't think he has any idea what is going on. I feel like he has never dealt with this before. Last time he saw me, he told me the next time I came in he could stitch it up IF I WANTED him too? Shouldn't he be telling me what to do? Well it turned out that he wasn't there the last time I went so I just saw his nurse, and she said she has no idea how he would stitch it up since it is a hole the size of a quarter and it would be hard to pull together. I don't want it stitched up because I feel like I would bend over once and pop all the stitches.
The other problem I'm having is weaning off my pain meds. I'm down to 12.5 mcg/hr fentanyl patch from 50, and I've only been taking about 1-3 Lortabs a day which is down from 8-10 just a month ago. But I HURT. Nothing like before surgery thankfully, but the pain in my leg is coming back a little bit. I just wake up so sore. Plus I'm having stomach issues to where I'm afraid to leave the house or eat. I would say about 75% of the time after I eat, I get really bad stomach pains and have to run to the restroom for the rest of the day.
I just dont feel like I'm getting anywhere. My 6 week recovery has turned into over 4 months now. I wish I never would have had this surgery because my quality of life hasn't changed one bit, except now everyone expects me to be better when I'm not. I lay in bed all day, either sleeping or watching tv. At night I can't sleep because my wound is so sore from doing the dressing change, plus I'm usually starving since I try not to eat too much so I won't feel sick. I feel like I'm letting down my family, my house is way beyond neglected, my kids are stuck inside all day because I can't take them anywhere, I'm just tired of being like this.
Sorry had to vent, I've been avoiding this site for quite some time so that maybe I won't think about all this, but I just couldn't go any longer. Thanks to anyone that listened.