As time goes on with the SCS and various meds my pain seems to spread out?
Is that even possible, well that's a stupid question as it seems to be possible as it is happening.
Lamictal 75mg AM
Pamelor/Nortryptaline 40mg at bedtime
Valium 5mg X4 a day
Flexeril X4 a day
I find that if I do most anything I feel pain all over.
It can range from cold, sweats, hot, burning, itching etc;
I don't seem to be able to get just a sore muscle or sense of working towards feeling better, you know that tired sore feeling but knowing it is making you better. I get pain.
When I ask my shrink about these kinds of things he says, "we can't make you better so you can work harder and negate the treatment. we are only trying to make you comfortable the way you are." He says, "if we get you feeling better and you do more, then we lose the gain we had making you feel better". arg
I am somewhat frustrated with the whole mess.
I can do nothing for a while, then I just need to do something, anything. That's when the problems creep back in.
This might be better placed in mental health?
I wonder if it is one of the meds? but can't pin it down to a certain time of day for the sweats and such, it just comes on when I work at anything the least bit strenuous.
I wonder could it be fibromyalgea? would there even be anything they would do different if it was? Chronic fatigue? Again same question, is there any difference in treatments?
I sometimes feel like there just isn't much point in anything I do anymore. To feel physically ok and not hurt all over I have to be a lazy do nothing guy. To do anything that feels worthwhile I end up in pain, that I don't have a means to control.
That's the other things that concerns me. When I push myself into this pain all over, the SCS is more like sticking a finger in a light socket! It hurts and irritates me! Lazy no work me can use the SCS. I have also had days where any contact felt like being stabbed! Shadow put his mouth on my foot one day, he is a puppy, did not bite down, but wow did it hurt, any touch at all hurt. That was the day after I spent 12 hours driving back from the beach.
I probably need to ask a doctor, but
A. I don't want to, fear of more tests etc;
B. I am afraid that my marriage won't hold up to more whining on my part, I have said nothing about this to my wife.
C. is there really anything that can be done differently?
I'm not suicidal, that's not an answer to anything.
I'm so far just plowing ahead regardless, but, fear that I am close to a "Nope can't do this anymore moment"...