I am hoping a few of you can relate to what I need to talk to my pm about tomorrow. I have been having an awful 3 months despite trying very hard to work within my new limits. It's gotten to the point where I am worried about being able to keep my job.
I am a professor and my job has 3 parts: teaching which requires that I stand for 3 hours a day on a concrete slab floor, research in my lab which is pretty physical, and office work for which I have an ergonomic chair and a private office.
The walking between buildings is killing my lower back and the standing to teach is bringing me to my knees. I am worried about how much longer I'll be able to teach and I'm only 35.
My stim is doing what it's always done - cover ~60% of the nerve pain. That part I count among my blessings every day.
But the least movement now is causing such biomechanical pain that I dread having to buckle my son's seat belt, heaven forbid give him a bath.
I have recently added neck and thoracic pain to my list of complaints for which I was given 12 botox shots at my last appointment. These wore off this weekend having bought me about a month of some relief. Without the botox, the pain is burning from my shoulder blades to the base of my skull, the skin tender to the touch.
I was super proud of myself in February when I was able to just about cut my pain meds in half. But now, I dread having to ask to go back up a little so that I can keep working. For some reason it feels like asking to do this is being ungrateful for what relief the stim did bring.
I hope this makes some sense to someone. Were I ever to manage pain, limitations, apologies for plans canceled, and unpredictability for what I'll be able to tolerate on a daily basis, I'd be set.