Had three bulging discs 'discected'. I had been out of work for about a year, in pain for almost three. Started with Brazilian Jiu Jitsu and got worse and worse. Now my back and rib cage pain has gone down significantly, with some relief in the neck. I am eating and sleeping more, less depressed and angry, so although I still feel horrible I know my pain is a lot better. I was crying after the thoracic surgery because there was such an immediate difference. However, it has been a month since surgery and my neck still feels worse than before overall. I know I am in too much of a hurry and that even with minimally invasive surgery it is still a lot of trauma on the nerves and everything else. And also that the nerves have been pinched for so long that they don't calm down all the way right away. I just don't know how much more I am going to get better. I can't stay on the computer for almost an hour until my neck feels weak and hurts. I am unable to do things I like or hang out with my friends (who haven't been supportive or understanding in any way.) I bought a breadmaker, tend to my garden, and watch lots of tv, but I am still very lonely and feel isolated and without meaning other than getting myself better. I do PT 3 times a week but beyond that I feel powerless except to wait and see how much I improve. At this point I feel doubtful that I will be able to work full-time for at least another year, and even that feels like a dream. Luckily I have loving parents that are taking good care of me and do not blame the victim. I am just frustrated because I excpected to be better sooner, and my neck still hurts more than I can bare. It is wearing me down, my hope is running thin, and it's starting to feel reminiscent of the last few miserable months before the surgery. I am worried that my neck is unable to support itself like it used to and that it will stay weak and in pain. If things stay the same I feel like I'll be unable to attain what I desire most, a career and someone to share my life with. Sure all this pain has turned my head around and made me rethink what's valuable in life, but now I'm freakin ready to put my newfound passion to work! I'm not on disability cause I expect to get better and have a clean record. But now I'm starting to entertain the idea that I might not return to 'normal'. Funny how you don't realize the magnitude of the situation until long after it has effected you. Can I find enough meaning in life to counterbalance this misery, all while at home alone and with no safe place to go? Has anyone else felt like this, and gotten better later, only to be that much more thankful to God for giving you a second chance? Should my neck nerves, now unpinched, still be rapping away with malice, or could it be my disc, which has had quite a bit removed from it, which is now causing me pain? The x-ray spec mentioned artho orthography or whatever and seemed alarmed at the exagerrated curve in my neck, one more thing to worry about. God this is almost too much to handle, why must I always be angry at everyone and everything just because I am in constant chronic pain? Anyways, thanks for listening, hopefully you're not a 26 yr old male like me, cause it's not easy thinking that this is the rest of your life, I need less pain or more meaning or I am gonna break.
By the way I would recommend my Doctor, helped a lot and was very respecting/professional, looks like I nicked myself shaving where they went in, flew home the same day as two cervical operations.
Edited by Tamtam for Doctors name and institutions naming.