I have been looking into ways to help myself cope with my pain issues for a while now. I have severe problems with my cervical spine..two vert fused out of place, stenosis, other vertebrea are now out as well. My thoracic is significantly deteriorated and lumber has a couple of disc bulging making contact..minimal..with nerve sac. I also have good old arthritis in all of my joints. This has been ongoing for me for 20 some years. I dealt with it for as long as I could..and finally a couple of years ago..came to the realization that the pain had taken control of me instead of me controlling it. So..I caved and went for my disability..killed me..and got it..now..here I am..45 and wondering what i've got to contribute except trying to make everyone understand that i can no longer make plans that are set in stone..that i have to live my life on a day to day..that i don't want pity..i want understanding..and most of all..i fear the future.