In some ways I feel very selfish posting this. I know there a lot of people in a much worse situation then I am in.
Yet after almost 6 months of this, I need to ask for help.....
My pain is 80% under control now and I pretty much know how to turn, lift, bend etc. so I don't do any more harm.
I also am blessed to have skills in other areas that allow me to work from home around my own scheduled.
Yet each day I say today I will start it ( my new work ) and each day for hours and hours I just sit and stare at the computer. I don't play games online or anything like that to suck up the time - I just sit and feel like I am staring at a blank wall.
I "know" what most of my issue is - I want to return to my busy work ( commercial cleaning lady for 24 yrs ). Yet I know I can't. ( I still do clean a few very small jobs a few times a week )
How do I get the right mind set to start a new life for myself?
I feel guilty as we NEED the income I can make. Yet I just can't seem to get moving???
I am a skilled & knowledgeable web designer and own a few websites that I ran before I got injured and now they just lay there dead
L1 - S2 "gone" useless in 1 way or another. DDD. RA. Bone Spurs. Tons of nerve damage/issues. Stenosis. Both knees replaced. 50 yrs old. I had a great fall (hence my user name) at age 41 and it has been a domino effect every since.