Well, I already knew by the end of the week that I had overdone it, but today got the absolute confirmation. As some of you may know, I started back to work last Monday. I only worked 2 half days (really it was only 2.5 hours each morning). So I worked Mon, Tues, on Wed I have a ptsd support group that is run by our mental health services that I go to in the mornings, it's usually about 2 hours. It always hurts to sit there. I also have another one, it's a volunteer peer support group that's run outside of military parameters. It runs every second Wednesday night. I usually don't attend both, when they are both run on the same day, but I had missed the past couple of each so decided to go to both. It's just too hard emotionally and physically to go to both on the same day. Anyways, I had to leave early Wed night, as I had a wake to go to, and ended up standing for about 45 minutes. That put me out of commission all day Thurs and not moving all that great Fri, and I had to go into work Fri, so I was pretty much done when I got home, even though I left early. Yesterday, my mom had a booth in a craft show that a couple of my friends wanted to go to, so we went even though I wasn't quite up to it, but wanted to be there for my mom. So, more standing. Then we went to lunch and to a couple of boutiques. More painful sitting, standing and walking. I was in so much pain by the time I got home, and all last night. Well, I woke up this morning, and the left side of my left hand and pinky finger are completely numb, with the "spark" type sensations and pain running down my arm and into my hand. It's been constant since waking up. It's intermittent on my right arm, only if I turn my head a certain way. My neck and shoulders are so painful. Before my surgery, it was mostly my right side, where all my problems were, but I do have stenosis on the left that he didn't touch (he would have had to cut me from side to side and push everything from the one side back over to the other to do both sides).
He did the anterior foraminotomy, hoping to stave off fusion. Now, I'm afraid that time may have come to have the fusion. Nothing before surgery ever helped really, traction only for maybe 2o minutes after, nothing in pt ever helped, acupuncture never did a thing. Even with the herniation and protrusion, and the debilitating pain I had with all of that and the bone spurs, the numbness and tingling wasn't constant. At least the pain isn't as bad, I'm sure because of neurontin (and not as much is wrong on this side as there was on the right). I do have one disc that's almost collapsed along with the stenosis.
I guess I'm afraid that the time that the NS said would come, is now here. I know I'm jumping waaay ahead of myself and am having a knee-jerk reaction right now, but I am scared. I see my pm on Tuesday, and booked an appointment with my gp last week, she's booked right up until the 25th. It's always that way, takes about 2-3 weeks to get in to see her (5000 people on base and only 5 doctors...)
Anyways, I'm not sure what my point is. I'm just really scared, and I guess need encouragement. The pain is nowhere close to what I was in prior to my surgery, I was literally bedridden, couldn't sit up, couldn't stand, had such sharp pain, I couldn't hold my head up, not to mention what was running down my arm, and into my shoulder blade. It's not that bad now, but bad enough. I've had to take breaks from typing this, and I'm laying down with my laptop. And all of this, along with my back, my hip, and my leg, which my hamstring and quad have been spasming constantly the past two days with sharp pain. At least the migraine I had last week has gone away, and just have my normal headache I've had every day the past year and a half... What more?
APROUD CANADIANveteranButNOTa doctor, my thoughts are my own