Ok I have a problem. I'm stoic or stubborn, something in me is broken. When anyone asks me how I am I downplay the pain, my standard answer is I'm here. So what I need to know is how do I communicate the true amount of pain I'm in? I can never seem to tell the doctors the truth. I have an appointment Tuesday with my PM doc, I know he know's I'm downplaying the pain. Maybe I just don't want to admit it to myself. Even when I was going into surgery the Anesthesiologist asked my pain level and I said 4. After the first round of meds he fired in the IV didn't work rapidly he said to me "you didn't tell me the truth of the pain level did you?" I said probably not. He then upped the medication to get me out.
So really how do I explain the truth of my pain? It effects everything about my life. I avoid things because I know it is painful. Even with that when asked I still downplay. I just can't understand why. I can say it here, but not in my regular life.