Things are not going well here. I'm starting to have a lot of popping and clicking in my back with even slight movements. I've always had this due to the bone fragments, it's just worse. Plus, lots of pain, some numbness, etc.
I guess I'm having difficulty separating what is real with what is anxiety over surgery, though. The whole stress/pain thing.
But most of all, I'm finding myself really incapable of thinking of much else. I am not terrified. I don't have any gruesome images. I'm just trying to arrange pictures in my mind of what things might be like, so I am walking into a semi-known schema. But this is SUCH an unknown that it has become sort of an obsession.
And I've been less able than I'd like to get my mind off of it, because of the increased symptoms.