After several meltdowns and anxiety attacks, my cataract surgery is back on. I talked to the nurse yesterday and told her I had taken the xibrom back because it was $78 and I new there were ones on my formulary list that would be much cheaper like volatren. She explained that it is not as good as the xibrom and offered me free samples of it. She said she would give me practice drops since putting drops in my eyes is what was freaking me out and it was okay if some ran down my cheek. She told me the surgery was up to me which made me feel like I was actually in control of the decisions concerning my own body so I said I would do it. If I have too much trouble putting the drops in then Dan will do it. I missed with the first try this morning, but got it in the second try.
I also went and apologized to the people at the Giant Eagle pharmacy and at the eye doctors where I had my anxiety attacks and they were very understanding. I just felt that I had no control over my own body, like the drug companies and health insurance companies were holding me hostage. The original price on those eye drops were $331! There is no call for meds being that expensive. I have read the obscene profits the drug companies are making and it makes me mad when drugs cost that much. They spend triple the money on advertising and gifts to doctors than they do on research than try to convince the public that the cost of research is what makes the drugs so expensive.
Then there is the problem of my anxiety attacks which get so much worse when my pain levels get high. I am still working with my wonderful Christian psychologist on that one. I am spending more time in prayer and meditation which is helping to calm me down as well. God bless all of you who prayed for me and responded to my rants.
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