Hi to everyone on s-h
I saw that some of my buddies from long ago are still around (were online when I signed in again). I'm sorry for being gone for so long. Know that I have thought of you guys a lot but never seemed to have the strength to get online. That means little time to read or reply to email, forget about MySpace or Facebook, my online time was to pay bills and research WTF is wrong with me.
Things have gotten worse lately. I've thought about going to the ER at least 4 times since Sunday but have struggled to get through each day and pray that tomorrow will be even a little better. A song just flashed through my head "Will tomorrow ever come?" Garth Brooks????
I'm desperately searching for doctors that will think I'm worth their effort to help me. The RX witch at PM told me at an appt that I had to accept the fact that the person I was is dead and gone; mourn the lost and move on. How's that for a smack upside the head. I'm trying to find a new PM doctor; maybe one that would see me at least once a year. The RX nurse is all I've gotten for over a year; the dr is too busy to see a patient. And she has the personality of the wicked witch's evil step-mother. I'm not being dramatic.
I don't have a neurosurgeon any more. He disliked my honest assessment of him and called me uneducated and irresponsible. whatever I did find a really nice (so far) neurologist. Have done 2 sleep studies and will see where this goes later this week. She recommended a RA dr; I got an appt for Feb. I pray daily, usually several times a day, that somebody will help me. Soon would be great but doesn't seem realistic.
For those of you that read this and don't know me from the past, I'm not usually this down and unable to see any light. PMS doesn't help either. For any of my old buddies from before, I promise not to take such a long vacation again. I'm glad you guys are still to be found. I hope you will be the ones with great stories of how you've gotten better.
Be Back Tomorrow! I promise.............