From what I've read on the forums there are people here that have been dealing with chronic pain for years, some for their entire lives. I have a few questions for you, if you don't mind?
A little over 4 months ago I herniated two discs in my spine, L4 and L5. Apparently they are pushing on a nerve which is causing a painful and numbing sensation to shoot down my right leg into my foot.
I went to an orthopedic doctor who gave me an injection in my back that worked for about 2 weeks, then I sneezed and was back to square one injuring myself again. By square one I mean crying on the floor unable to move, or stay in one position for a long period of time.
I never cry, not in all my 30+ years, and the pain from this injury brings tears daily. I can't sit, stand, or even lay properly. I can't sleep for more than an hour. The pain is so intense it takes my breath away and I pray for death to come.
I have an appointment with a neurosurgeon this week, and with a pain management specialist. But, I'm losing hope, no one seems to have a game plan or can tell me exactly what to do in order to improve. I can't take this pain! I'm on pain killers that are so strong they make me ill. I use to eat percocet like candy and then they upped it to another intense drug.
My question is for anyone with severe pain like mine. That's crippling, 24 hours a day, never relents, and is intense enough to bring you to tears and wish for death.
How in the world do you deal with the pain and living another day knowing what's ahead?
This is scary to say, and ask. But, when do you think it's just time to call it quits and take your own life? I'm getting to that point where I just don't want to wake another day and have to deal with this type of pain. I think it may be more humane to just end it then continue this way.
Thank you all for reading, if you do, and answering, if you can!