My surgery is next Thursday and I feel like I am in stall mode. It keeps getting closer and I feel ok with that but when I get in that bed I just don't know if I will be able to go through with it. I know I have to, but I am so worried about it not helping my pain, and I am worried about having a really long recovery. I have a toddler to take care of and I just can't be out of commission forever. My husband is working from home for 3 months to help me but after that I am on my own.
My doctor told me flat out that I would feel like I was going to die for about 4 days. Not exactly something I want to willingly sign up for you know? Can anyone share their experiences about how you felt after surgery? I told my husband I don't think I want my 17 month old to see me in the hospital because I will be so out of it but I will miss her so much.
Argh...I am so on edge now.