So, I was hurt in an accident a few years ago. I have been in pain everyday since. I have gone to doctors and physical therapy. I've had shots and procedures that failed and more shots. And I finally said enough. I can't stand being stuck with needles and getting minimal relief.
My surgeon says I need a fusion in my LS spine. But, that I should wait until I'm older. In the meantime I'm in constant pain with an allergy to opiates. The only way I deal with it is to balance my activities. The more I move the more I hurt. This means that most of the time I'm not doing much.
So, I applied for disability since the chronic pain is debilitating. And I get denied. Twice. Now I'm doing a review hoping to get my case accepted. And now I find out I have to see more of their doctors.
I am sick and tired of being poked and prodded by every person under the sun. I'm tired of having to prove the obvious.
So, this guy hurts me in an accident. I ask for help. And I end up being the one having to prove something. Really? I'm ready to scream.
I was just so upset I did what my surgeon tells me not to do. I got all stressed out. He told me not to stress because, when you stress the muscles around your spine tighten. And that I have inflammation all up and down my spine. And that the tightened muscles irritate the inflammation and cause more pain.
So, now I'm sitting here with a cup of hot tea. And pain is radiating from my neck all the way down to mid thigh with sciatic pain. I need to just relax. But, I can't help that I get upset when yet again I'm asked to prove the extremely painful obvious.