Oh boy, do I miss it - having a ciggy that is. I haven't had one at all today and it's doing my head in. It's gone one in the morning and I cannot sleep. This evening for example, to try and take my mind off ciggies, I've had some fruit, a drink (diet pepsi), more fruit, some crackers, yet some more fruit, a yoghurt, and.... yeah, you guessed it, another handful of fruit - BUT I still desparately crave a cigarette!!!! Aaaarrrrgh!! What can I do to kick it's butt?
I started the nicotine replacement therapy this morning by putting on a 16 hour patch (which itches!) and using an 'inhalator' as/when required (which does something strange to the back of my throat when I try and puff on it).
I know this should probably go under a different heading on the forum, but I think the 'chronic pain' section has more viewings so I'm hopeful that more people may respond to help me with.....
Giving me some tips?
Telling me how you gave up?
Being honest about your success or failure?
Saying when you last had a ciggy?
Telling me how you increased your will power?
Does it get any easier, and if so - when?!!
And, by the way, I do still have chronic pain similar to before the 2 level fusion, which is so disappointing. What's worse is that I now also get pain from different areas entirely, but I'm being looked after by my local GP and my surgeon is performing spine injections (probably in May) to hopefully help alleviate all the pain. Although I'm still considered to be in recovery, I'm really grateful that my work's doctor is finally allowing me to return to work, which could be very soon.
The new nicotine patches just adds to the 2 I'm already wearing for a slow release morphine dose. If I save them all up and sew them together, I'll have a "patch" patch-work quilt, ha!
I know it's only been ONE day, but it sucks already and I hate the world today!!!! I know I should be thinking about all the benefits of not smoking, i.e. saving money and how it will help the healing process etc., but what inspiration can I use that'll increase my will power because it's very very low at the moment. Oh yeah, and another thing, my hubby smokes and it's even more frustrating when I see him across the room puffing away like a little chimney.
This is so difficult. I don't think non-smokers have the foggiest idea what we go through at times like this, and when we're having a bad back pain day, it's even worse.
Thanks for letting me have a good old moan and letting off some steam!!!!
2 x Microdiscectomy 2005 / PLIFusion 2-level 2010 / revision surgery 2011 / NEVRO Senza spinal cord stimulator implanted February 2013. I WILL NOT GIVE IN / UP !!