So last week I just couldn't deal anymore and went to my doctor asking for time off work. She gave me two weeks. I was stressed out severely trying to deal with the pain and work at a demanding job - with meds my head is screwed up and I can't think or concentrate... without meds I'm in too much pain to work. So I am off on medical leave. Yesterday my manager calls me and tells me I'm off the project - that's not quite fired but I'm 'on the bench'. This means the company is keeping me on the payroll but there is no work for me to do. That's fine while I'm off these two weeks but the problem is going back. Being on the bench means I have to physically go into the office every day, there is no working from home. I can't sit for more than 1/2 hr so that won't work for me. I feel like my employer has backed me into a corner and forced me to apply for short term disability. I have the papers and will get them filled out but I wasn't ready to start thinking about this stage yet. I don't see any other options, I'm a bit confused still and it feels like life has turned upside down on me.
I see the surgeon in less than a month now but from what I've heard there's not likely going to be much change then. I found out that the surgeon I'm seeing doesn't even do back surgeries - no one in our province does. He will just do an assessment, possibly order an MRI, maybe EMG test then if he feels it necessary he will refer me to a spine specialist in another province. My physiotherapist filled me in on the process when I started back last week. Sounds like its going to be a looooong process that I'm not looking forward to. This is not the way I planned my life!