today was a real learning day put me in my place kind of day.
i have a raised flower bed in front of my house(3feet high). and i had to pull out some of the weeds and plant some flowers that have been in the starter pots since last year.
the weeding did not go to bad but after planting 6 or 8 plants my back and leg had way to much(cra##)
so i wattled into the house and set in the recliner(if you call it sitting)i could not or can not believe how something so simple has to be so hard to do. now 5 hours later and having to take more meds and can not sleep.
I don't think i have ever felt so down, done, tired, worthless, kinda feeling. I no that there are lots of other people that are way worse off than me. and usually i can shake off this kind of funk but its really hit me hard this time for some reason. its like old me is gone and new me cant find things to do that don't kill me. i was before all ways on the go to much to do and not enough time to do it working or playing. now it seems like all i do is burn air. :''(