I am struggling. In a HUGE way. I have been dealing with back problems for 7 years. Originally a 3rd degree bulging disk. After 6 months went back to work, it flared 4 more times until last July. I had a coccyx and lumbar injection in Nov. 10, and Bilateral Nerve block at L5 in April, both lasted 2 weeks. I am scheudled for L4-S1 minimally invasive posterior lumbar fusion on May 23.
I am in sooo much pain. The shooting pains are the worse. I am still working, can't do without the money. I work in pediatrics in occupational therapy, so I am lifting kids, manually working with and dealing with behavior issues all day. I am in so much pain by the time I get home I can't do anything with my own kids. Taking 2 tramadol and 2 muscle relaxers takes the edge off, doesn't take away pain.
My husband is so sick of my anger, pain, and me not being able to help at home. My injury occured 2 month after we were married. Has anyone else with chronic pain found themselves going off the handle verbally, easily angered, and pissed at all times? I truly think that my initial injury screwed up my life. with dealing with all of this I feel like i am not a happy person and angry all the time. Is this normal? I am on an anti-depressant to try and help.
Now my husband wants a divorce and is willing to help me through the next 12 weeks but already has a place. He said my anger and not being able to help is too much. We have a 3 year old and I am so afraid that after my surgery I won't be able to keep doing the moderate physical job I do now. I am just so sad and angry and hopeless. Did anyone else feel this way?