Hi, all of this started on July 22,2008 with L5-S1 herniation. After a year of steroid injections, PT, Radio frequency ablation,I had disc removed and spine fused Nov. 20,2009. By december 2009, I complained to my NS about mid back pain,popping feeling,neck pain(complained of neck pain since summer 2009) and continued low back pain. He refused to pay attention to me, ended up going to family doc.He had full spine MRI done and switched NS docs for me. Found herniations at C5-C6, C6-C7, dessicated disc T6-T7,herniation T7-T8 with deformity of chord,dessicated disc T8-T9, as well as 3 more bulging discs at L2-L5. I have deg. disc disease,arthritis in every facet joint,spurs at numerous locations,lumbar stenosis,cysts...you name it, I think I have it and I'm only 41.
For thoracic problems I have undergone 4 rounds of steroid injections and numerous pain pills,muscle relaxers,anti-inflammatories which now line my bathroom cabinet because none of them worked and I'm not taking pills that don't work.I refused to take narcotics until last month when the pain became unbearable. Cymbalta for nerve pain(works for my depression and stress)Lortab and now morphine has been prescribed. Neither of them work either so they will join the others lining my cabinet.Have even tried vitamins,herbal supplements to no avail. I can't do PT because the more I move, the more I hurt. I can only stand up, walk for 5-10 minutes, I can't do any housework or shopping or cooking. I can't even hold my 4 month old,15 pound grandaughter.I couldn't hold her when she was born at 7 lbs. unless I lay down.I have been having pain in sternum and one of my right ribs for the last 2 weeks. My pain clinic doc has given up and sent me back to NS. Waiting for new MRI and then app. with NS on June 13th.Pain is at the point where I could use a walker just to walk around my house(because I can't stand upright, I have to slouch, bend over to alleviate some of the pain)but I don't have one, and I'm wondering how much longer before I end up in a wheelchair. The only time I am not in pain is if I'm laying flat on my back. I'm afraid of surgery since low spine fusion went so well NOT!!!!!! Not looking forward to finding out results of new MRI or thoracic surgery if needed. Have already been told they will go through my side???!!!!!Through my ribs doesn't seem like the correct approach but either way, side or back, I lose part of my rib right?
I have heard so many horror stories and I know that surgery on any part of my spine could make things worse. I honestly don't think I could handle it if it got any worse. Am already praying for a miracle or pain free paralyses. I am mother of 3, ages 22-19-9 and step mother to 4, ages 11-13-15-17(step children live with their mom), wife to a WONDERFUL man, and I feel totally useless!!!!! Have tried to stay strong but I don't know how much longer I can do this. Don't worry , already seeing shrink and I'm not selfish enough to hurt myself. Not saying I won't go insane though LOL I worked for 23 years, hard jobs, on my feet, lifting up to 100 pounds repeatedly for 10 of those years for the Walmart Distribution Center. I was an avid hiker, swimmer, kneeboarder,horse and motorcycle rider,dog walker,gardener....loved being outdoors. Now .....not so much. I dread getting out of bed in the morning,and having to watch as life goes on around me while I sit or lay on the couch because I'm in too much pain to move.I haven't worked since injury in 2008.I have been on disability for almost a year, so I at least have financial help.Hubby is a truck driver, see him a few days every 2-3 months!!! 22 & 9 yr. old daughters live with me and do pretty much everything around here.
I guess I don't really have any questions for now, just looking for understanding and maybe some positive feedback. Someone to tell me there is hope for me.Please, Dear God , let there be hope for me.