I have had unrelenting pain..no up times no periods of pain relief since May 11, since we had to go to Toronto which is a 5 hour trip by car. I am getting desperate nd I will admit that at times I don't think clearly and would do anything for a break, a relief from some of this pain! My left side lower, and piriformis are KILLING ME! I am sobbing as I type this. I am taking more dilaudid and haven't been able to get on my tredmill at all. I am miserable and the babies are now saying that their back hurt! Isn't that horrible? They're so used to hearing me saying "sorry mommy can't do that my back hurts". I'm just angry and hurt and I swear I have been REALLY trying to be positive but this has been the longest that i have had such horrific pain with no relief. To the point of nauseau. I just keep thinking I am only 35, how am I supposed to go on like this?
*crying and feeling like crap*