Hey all this will be my second post. Short background on me: I am 24 and an ortho nurse. I have 4 herniated discs ( T6-T7, T8-T9, L3-L4, L4-L5 is the worst) I have arthritis of the spine and have a deformity where my L5(transverse process) is tilted over and has actually formed a joint with my left hip. All I take for pain control is tylenol and ibuprofen with an occasional flexeril for muscle spasms.
Part of my problem is that when I was 16 I started having abdominal/chest pain and was told for 2 yrs it was acid reflux only to end up in the hospital with pancreatitis and needing my gallbladder removed emergently. It was horrible. All that "acid reflux" had been me passing gallstones for 2 years. The doctors never believed I was in as much pain as I said I was. The other part of my problem is being in health care and knowing how doctors think. Also knowing what some patients are like.
Flash forward to now. I am dealing with back pain daily and it is seriously starting to effect my life. I just had an ESI which seems to only have decreased my pain by probably 20%. I am afraid to ask for pain meds or options because, well I am never sure that the doctors believe my pain. I also think that the doctors think my pain can't possibly be as bad as I say it is. I handle pain well (or at least I think I do). At the pain level I am in regularly I am miserable most of the time. I am too young for a surgeon to consider surgery or any other plan of treatment really. I need better pain control though. I just don't want to be thought a drug seeker. My anxiety about what my doctor will think or tell me about my pain is so great that at the moment I am choosing to live with it and avoid an office visit. I'm not sure how much longer I can last though. My biggest fear is my doctor telling me there is no reason for my pain and even though I have diagnosed problems I worry he still thinks there is no reason for my pain. I worry I'm becoming a hypochondriac maybe my problems aren't as bad as I think. Any advice, help, support, or wisdom appreciated. Thank you in advance!