I am new here and the reality of my surgery next week is just hitting home hard! Feeling very scared and suddenly I want to run in the opposite direction! Actually, to be able to even walk at a proper pace would be good, run would be a miracle!
This surgery is just the start to a run of others needed due to early osteoarthritis in other parts of my body but I am desperate for my lumbar region to be sorted as the pain is terrible and I think its that which will put me in a wheelchair before anything in fact as the waiting lists are so long it will be a while before they can do it after this. I have other health issues which makes this operation complicated with extra risk which is why I am extra scared. I feel everyone else is carrying on with their lives as if everythings the same yet it could all change next week and not necessarily just for the better. I know a positive attitude is important but I have to be realistic and responsible too and I know my risks, as do others around me, I just dont understand how I am the only one facing it openly.
Anyway, this is me, needing some support and glad to be here. Thanks everyone. Great site.