I'm so sorry to bombard all of you with a thousand questions, but I'm just not sure who else to turn to. This is by far the biggest surgery I've ever had. I remember feeling nervous, anxious, excited, etc, leading up to the surgery. Then it was suddenly here, and now 9 days has passed. The pain, for the first few days, was unreal. I was being pumped full of pain meds and steroids, and it was barely helping. Now that seems to be subsiding, and it's moreso incisional pain than anything else. I still feel very weak and have been using my walker to get around when I'm walking longer distances. I force myself to shower and take a short walk every day, but I just feel so useless. I feel as if the last 9 days have been a complete blur. I feel like all I've been doing is sleeping. I hate that I've missed out on 9 days of summer fun with my kids. Is it normal to feel like this after surgery? The littlest things are making me cry today, and it's absolutely ridiculous. I hate feeling so damn fragile. Please tell me this is normal and it will get better! I go back to UPenn next Wednesday to have my sutures taken out and my incision checked. If I'm not feeling better by then, I'll definitely talk to them about it. I know the steroids I was on can cause mood swings, so perhaps it's a result of that. I've stopped the steroids, under the supervision of my doctor, so maybe it'll just take some time for my body to adjust. Any suggestions on things I can do to start feeling normal again? I'm counting down the days until I start my new job (August 8th), because then I feel like I'll start to feel functional again.