Hi! I am new to this forum, I had cervical fusion c5-c6. I remember I use to read this post before doing the surgery, I always thought I was not going to have it. Well it happened, and so much wish I had aproach this in a different matter. At the beginning I think I handle it well but I started to get obsess as the pain came back. YES, I had a period free of pain, but then it came back. But this is another story.
This are my questions:
Do you feel that your ROM have change the way you move all your body, have change the way you talk with others? For me I feel always concious of how my head move. It hurts after the surgery when finally my neck was not hurting. My neck is always pupping and in pain.
Can you kiss, cuddle and have intimacy as you use to do? I am afraid of flirting because I don't feel confident when I move my head, I feel like in some other body, I prefer the pains I had before this. I think the surgery could have waited.
I feel less spontanous, scared to go out, speak with people... and I use to be very sociable.
How do you feel when you hear music?? For me is like transporting me to a place where I use to move freely, fluently and without fear.
I am 35, I see that other people get along with this surgery, but I hear so many that don't. I have a friend that was told to get an operation but she waited a lot of pain for two years and it resolve.
What I am really dialing is with the impossibiolity of time traveling.
Everybody telling you is in your head, and comparing you to people in wheelchairs, or without legs, cancer that move along. I swear this people used to be inspiring to me at other moments in my life but no I admire them but it makes me sad when I don't feel understanding but just pressure so one move on.
My head can stop comparing myself with my old self. I am so confused in how to start over. I can' belief I had a 4 year long distance relationship, now we are broke mostly because the distance and the condition... So I am 35 and been having intimacy with fear ufff if I would have known...
I am just in shock, how life changes like this. The worst part is that I fighted for two years I was sometimes near the light and this have thrown me in a darker place than before. I lost my house, my frieds look at me different, my boyfriend, my relationship with outdoors, dancing, music. I feel trapped in this body, I wish so much I could just go back.
Hated medication, now I am taking klonopin, and surviving. I just one to feel my neck okkkkkkkkk. I had an episode of pain in my legs, I think I preferred that, or pain in my joints... is the change of motion, the stiffness is like a mind body separation. Feel so out of my habitat.
Wondering if anybody feels the same?