Help me, I am in hell.
My name is Chanelle, and I've been trapped in this pain for six months now. It has not improved at all, and I have been to a host of medical professionals. Nothing showed up on my lumbar MRI and I have had nerve damage testing completed at the SC Neurological Practice in Columbia, SC. I do not have any nerve damage, and I have no issues with my discs. After a long trial of attempting to pinpoint issues, my new physical therapist discovered that the muscles in my left hip are contorted and the joints are really stiff. He showed me some exercises to do on my own twice a day, but ever since I've started them, I feel worse again. He is working with me to correct the imbalances in my hips, and so I imagine that the pain might increase initially, but I'm not sure how to handle the pain anymore. I am going to see a St.John's Neuromuscular Therapist. I am hoping that the combination of PT and this massage therapist will bring me some relief.
Is anyone else suffering bouts of depression? I am only 23 years old and every doctor tells me that it is abnormal to have had this pain for so long. I am terrified about having to learn to live with this pain for the rest of my life. I am a drummer, and I haven't been able to play music or go to school or work for 6 months and I feel like all I do is try to kill the pain, but everything I do is futile. I'm looking for people who are also hurting to talk to. My friends here don't understand what it is like to live like this, and as a result I am becoming increasingly distant from my friends because I envy their abilities to do the things I can't do anymore. I hate feeling alone with this pain.
If anyone wants to vent about their pain, or talk, or perhaps work out some ideas about how to gain some confidence and happiness while trapped in this hell, please message me or respond. I don't mean to sound dramatic, but my world has become so small because of this problem and I need something else to focus on.
Thanks for reading, and I hope to talk to some of you soon.