Hi everyone, I am having such severe panic attacks since my last doctors appointment. They are getting worse the closer the surgeon appointment gets which is tomorrow morning at 7:30. I am so depressed I do not want to move I can't even smile I kind of stare out into space and don't even think I am thinking of anything. I am scared and although I have my family I am lonely. I am worried about who is going to do everything if this surgeon says it has to be done asap and the recovery oh god I remember the recovery with with the first two surgeries. Ohhhhhh I am dreading everything.
My oldest son decided to pick now to pick up and move away with my two grandchildren they lived with me .. I am missing them so bad. Kadence my 2 year old grand daughter use to say grandma I take care of you I am miserable and my family is suffering. Has anyone ever been so miserable that you can't even stand yourself, because that is how I feel right now.