I just wish I could handle this better. I am 8 month post op and I progress and then back again.
I have pain going into my incision, going into my chest. It feels as if I had a cut inside. I wonder if is the muscle they have to cut to go in?
I am doing Tai Chi, walking and started physical therapy again. The pain also goes up to my left ear and arm. It feels sore. I wander if I did something wrong. My surgeon told me I could do anything I want. I don't do everything I want because pain stops me.
Yesterday a friend hug me and I scream. It feels like a cut inside. I told my physiatrist and she recommended me to see another one.
Even speaking or doing any kind of face is painful in my neck. Laughing is very strange I don't feel able to laugh as before, I use to laugh a lot, I wander if the change of motion change this. Has anyone has experience change in the way you laugh or cry?
I want to do anything that is in my power to feel better. I get depress but now I am fighting back. Before I felt so angry at having surgery, because I notice I felt better before that all my focus was on regret and nostalgia. Seeing my friends cleaning and moving around like flash gordon amazes me. I took so much things for granted! Now I can see how people move around like working ants.
I want to go back to work. Has anybody experience what I have and has get better and have go back to work.
Hope all of you sleep well! Hope your feel better! Enjoy anything that you love!
I have move on thanks to many of you people.