Hello to all of you lovely human beings! I am so delighted that I am NOT alone. I only regret the fact that we all had to make one another's acquaintance out of pain and suffering.. but at least there has been an offering of light shed in the darkness that is spinal pain/injury/etc.
My name is Crystal and I am in fact a 2 yr. lumbar spine chronic pain sufferer, who suffered a workplace injury on September 21, 2010 which caused annular tears at L4-L5 and l5-S1 along with bulging of both discs ( one is almost bone on bone with little to no fld in between the vertebra). The guy had a condition which caused severe weakness of one half of his body, so out of frustration or whatever.. he used his good arm to grab my waist and back and use it to pull his about 220 lb body up, over, and nearly out of his bed! Needless to say, the injury severely worsened my condition which was what I suppose was some form of DDD and sciatica as well and caused the tears that I mentioned above, and of which I now require surgery to repair (L4-5 and L5-S1).
In addition to the injury (actually adding severe insult to the injury),I of course now am going thru a worker's comp case and am very frustrated and hurt by the way that I have been treated.. If only one of those adjusters could feel 1/4 of the pain that I experience on a daily basis, than I believe that their actions and words would be quite different! You know seriously though, I wouldn't wish this pain and life changing experience on my WORST enemy! 3 specialists say surgery.. I feel like if something doesn't happen that I may never be able to work as a nurse ever again.. and the adjusters say 'nothing is wrong.. exacerbation of old symptoms, send her back to work!" WHAATTTTT! I seriously pray for the foolishly cold souls of those who actually let those words be made solid on paper!
So.. as you all can see.. I NEED this site!
I believe that I now have found a source of solace and help from others here who know what I am going thru, the pain, the sorrow, the fear, the depressed moods at times, the pain.. I said pain twice on purpose... and you all have offered me hope. Likewise, I can now try not to focus on the reality that by the time that I am 40 that I may be crippled because of my spinal condition.
I am awaiting trial, the adjuster's are fighting me tooth and nail, and in a way I understand due to me having a pre-existing back condition, but it is not the same.. I did everything that I could to make sure that I was as healthy as possible, including losing nearly 60 lbs!
So there is a small chunk of my story.. so I hope now that you will not delete my account because this is the first time that I can honestly say that I have the chance to meet and develop relationships with others who truly understand what I am going thru and vice-versa.
Thanks ever so much.. Crystal