and on the topamax...oh my. I have never been in SO much pain in my life besides childbirth. I am shaking and I am at a loss for words. I did the wean and by the time I got down to 400mg I was hurting bad and questioning why I was going off. But still I stuck it out. By 200 I wanted to die, literally. I was on the verge of going to the ER but I didn't only because of how crappy they would treat me (and have). So I called my pm and got in on the Tuesday (OMG..2 LOOONG days later) and he did tpi all over) and it seemed to have taken the edge off a bit. So I am currently on 25mg topamax in am and 25mg in pm and ll the other stuff in between (I will work up to 100mg) At first I had really bad heart palpitations..but so far so good. My head feels a bit funny and by funny I don't know what I mean, you know?
I do know that I HURT DAMN IT!!!! So...the Neurontin must've been doing something!!!! Here I thought the only thing I could thank it for was 10 pounds cause I still hurt all the time! Well...NOT bone on bone muscle ripping kill yourself spsm hurt like I feel now. Beads of sweat on my forhed kind of hurt.
Ugh. WHAT did I do??
I go to my church tomorrow evening for a healing ceremony. I pray it works a bit..even a bit..not 100% just enough for me to ply with my kids, to make love with my husband, to go for a walk..I'm only 35..PLEASE......
sorry for the rant guys