Hello everyone, I hope everyone is feeling less pain as you read this so you can focus and give me good advice:) J/K
My PM doc started me on the fentanyl patch 25 mcg then added another 12 mcg change every three days he also increased my cymbalta from 60mg to 90 mg this has been since the end of Sept. Well I think something is making me go a little crazy. Maybe a lot crazy, I am so irritable I do not think I talk to my husband anymore I think I am automatically responding to him with an aggravated irritated toned well my kids they get a nasty voice to if they try to talk to me, my 12 year old said to me the other day as he started crying Mom I do not know what to say to you nothing is right and he walked out side to cry alone... what kind of mother am I?? I am /was a very laid back mother didn't expect much from the kids besides good grades a little help around the house and for them to make the right choices as long as they did that I was never irritated or mean.
I cry and when I say I cry I mean I cry for no reason when my husband says what are you crying for the tears stream faster and more and all I can say is plz do not ask me I do not know and if you try to talk to me about it I am going to keep crying.
That has happened a couple times last week and a few times this week ... I feel depressed which is normal for me with the pain, I am very much a product of my environment it plays a role on my mood and behavior. When my pain is bad I am very depressed and when it is good not so much. The PM i see said they do not treat breakthrough pain so the patch has to work, I really do not understand PM i thought was pain management and mine has not been managed at all since all this started. SO along with the miserable mood changes miserable sweats the break through pain that I can do nothing about, I am making my family miserable.
DO THINK this could be because of the medications, here is the kicker....
I am afraid to say anything to the PM doctor for fear that he will say I need to see a shrink which I have no problem seeing as you all know I sure can ramble , with my big mouth an hour would fly by, I am afraid though that he will try to take my pain medication away and say he can not help me since he does not do other medications. They help when they help so I do not want to lose what little relief I get
Any Ideas ? AM I Paranoid? lol Oh I hope not....
They put so many laws and restrictions on pain medications in NY ... it makes it so scarey for those of us who are in pain all the time. I hate to be afraid to say the truth, because someone might take it wrong and I might lose what little relief I get.
I am a nurse and I have seen it, Doctor or nurse will say, they just want a different medication they are drug seeking and yes some of them were and it was hard to pick em out, but they were usually the ones who looked high if you think about it when people are using medication for treatment they do not look stoned.
Sorry for the rammpage but I was reading stuff on here and it just made me think, must of been thinking too hard tho, I am sweating like a pig gotta go change... thanks in advance for all your thoughts and help