Hi fellow spineys,
I am still here with some improvement on depression in the last month which I'm grateful for. No where near where I want or need to be. My wife says I'm inpatient, but it's hard not to be when the days are long and dark.
I am a little more active, I mean small chores here and there and a little more motivated. I have anxiety issues and when I just lay in bed with the pain from my back and legs I feel like panicing, like I need to do something, to get help somewhere else and I need to do it NOW. It's my anxiety telling me at that time that I can't go on another minute, I have to take a new action. I was use to getting things done in my old life, helping others and my kids get things done. I hate feeling helpless.
Well I just wanted to update you guys who have been so kind and supportive to me. I take Cymbalta twice a day which seems to work better for me. I am still eating my pain meds, yippie
. I have pain at bad levels with them so I truly fear what I'd do without them. I wish I didn't take them and on some level I think I feel out of control and unhappy with myself that I do. I am so conflicted at times.
Hope everyone is doing well, on the mend, or improving. Have a Happy Halloween and try not to binge eat the candy, another one of my problems of late.