I haven't been on here much recently - I think I have been too fed up to post! It is just over three months since I had my hardware out and the infection cleaned out.
My recovery is really slow and I cannot do anything to hurry it along. I have hardly any energy. I can do my 40 - 50 minute walk each day and then some days I can add a small trip to the shop or something similar. If I go for my swim I can do about 10 lengths (I used to swim at least 64 lengths 5 times a week and on good days it would be 100 lengths!) and then I need to come home for a sleep!
If I do push myself to do a little bit more then I pay in exhaustion and pain. I feel quite pathetic because, like a lot of spineys, I am an up and at 'em sort and find this waiting to get better really frustrating.
The surgeon did warn me against "powering through" so I try and stay within my limits - to be honest I am too tired most of the time to do much else!
On a positive, so long as I don't do a lot then I have very little pain. It is only when I do extra that I start to really hurt. Mind I have returned to the naproxen twice a day and I think that has helped a bit too. I do still have nerve pain in my thighs most of the time but I can bear it so it can't be that bad! When I do too much it gets bad and goes in my feet too.
I had thought that I would be going back to work in January but that is looking less likely as time goes by. I am not even doing anything like half a day's activity at the moment let alone a whole day in the lab! I am signed off for another 6 weeks yet so I will just have to hope that I start to get better faster!
I have never felt like this before. Sure, after the fusion I was tired and in pain but this exhaustion is something else. I am finding it difficult because there is no information out there. There was loads out there for me to read about recovery from fusion so I knew what to expect but this time there is nothing. I don't think I had realised just how bad the infection had been. I suppose my body had been fighting it for best part of two years and now it has had enough! I was really tired all the time before the surgery, maybe it was a miracle I didn't just keel over earlier!
I feel pretty low at the moment as it feels like life is passing me by. I had the initial fusion two years ago because the pain I had was limiting my life and now, two years later, I am doing even less! I know that I will get better eventually and that I should count my blessings, I do try - honest!
Anyway, I am sorry to moan on as I know that so many of you are suffering with pain and tiredness much worse than me. Thank you for listening/reading! I am off now to get a grip and pull myself together!