Hey everyone. Been doing a lot of thinking lately...about the " old me". I used to be a very fun-loving, care free easy going kind of guy.
I loved to horse around, and roughhouse with the kids-I was extremely active...playing all kinds of sports, running, traveling, go out with my buddies once every couple of months and paint the town red...dancing- letting loose.... Fun fun fun.
Now look at me. Pain has changed me for the worse. I no longer have that easy going spirit. I spend most of my day trying to find some form of comfort. Trying not to be too irritable or cranky.
I wake up in the morning sore and don't look forward to the day ahead. I dread it....and actually start to think how once I hit the bed later, I'll be more comfortable. Damn.
It's like a viscious cycle..... There are some days(hours) when I am actually able to forget about my pain-but those days are few and far between.
I used to enjoy writing...but now even 15 minutes sitting at the computer is too much for me to handle. Sciatica is killing my spirit. Have you ever tried to spend the day NOT sitting? It's so hard. And of course if I stand up or move too much, my back pain gets as bad as my leg/butt pain.
I feel like this is never going to go away. I miss the old me! How has pain changed you??