I will be the first to admit that being young and in considerable pain day in and day out takes its toll on your personality and quality of life. Compound this with other personal struggles and it is almost too much to bear. I want to write this as a lesson I learned recently. My pain and family problems elevated my depression to a level where I attempted suicide twice in a matter of weeks. Yes I did get help and no the situation at home did not get better in fact I am now a single dad (she found someone new and "healthy") my pay was cut drastically and it looked hopeless. What I took away from all of this is ask for help I did not until it was almost too late and while I have my trials and troubles I can deal with them in a healthy manner. Somedays we spend so much time focusing on the bad that we do not see the good our lives have for us no matter how small that one thing is. Hold onto life cherish the good moments no matter how short or pain free (tolerable) they are. I write this because I know I am not the only one here that has had these thoughts cross their minds and from a survivor i am here to tell you this is so not the right path to take yes it may be easy but the pain you are in is minimal to the pain you will leave behind. I do not want to come across preachy or pointing fingers it is not my intention I just want to say from my point of view it does get better we may just not see it today.
Live one day at a time and do it with no regrets. I hold my head up high with pride to the fact that i wont let my injury beat me.
Lumbar surgery 2009
Cervical fusion C4 to C7 2009
Heart ablation 2011
Lumbar fusion L4 to S1 2012 and now L1 2 3 and 4 are split and bulging.