Hi again all and a happy new year (not posted for a while!)
Well my recovery seems to be really up and down. At the moment I am in another down. My hardware removal and infection clean up was 5 months ago.
The week before Christmas I managed to go to the pool twice and I think I did about 16 lengths both visits. So I felt quite positive. I did have a bit more pain and needed codeine a few nights but was generally ok. Then boxing day I caught a cold that totally drained me so I didn't do much except my daily walk until the new year.
New year week I went to the pool twice again and felt quite good. I actually started to feel like I was going to be OK. I saw the GP on the 9th of Jan and told her I was feeling better - still tired but that if I pace myself throughout the day I could do more. So I would swim in the morining then rest until afternoon and then go for my walk etc. I maanged to swim 3 times that week (a total of 68 lengths!) and i felt good. Really positive.
Then on monday this week I returned to feeling like a zombie. It is like a fog of tiredness comes over me and I have no uumph. I managed my swim on Monday morning but haven't been since.
I am worried that actually the two weeks of feeling better were the anomally and that I am going to be stuck in this half life situation forever. I have noticed that the increased tiredness is accompanied by more pain and that my back is still tender to the touch in the exact same area where it was before the hardware removal. I am really worried that I still have some chronic infection in there and that, as it will be a biofilm bacteria, it won't show itself on blood tests etc. I don't know if I am being paranoid or not. I really don't know what to think, feel or do for the best.
I feel pathetic to be honest because I can't do anything. I am still off work and totally freaking out about going back. Especially as, after my positive GP visit last week, we had said it will probably be within a month. There is no way I could have gone to work this week.
I have no way to know if my recovery is normal or if I should be worried that something still isn't right. I knew I wasn't right before - and I was right. But maybe this is how I am supposed to feel.
I am sorry to rant on - there is nowhere else to turn. Thanks for reading.