It is now 5 weeks from surgery which was a Laminectomy L2-L5. I mentioned in previous post that I fell down the stairs 2 weeks after surgery. I did see the surgeon last Friday and got an Xray. The Xray came out ok. I needed to ask for more pain medication. When I got home I saw that the surgeon is weaning me off vicodin. He prescribed 1 tablet every 8 hours for pain. I can't stand up for more than a few minutes without excruciating pain. I can barely walk. I still spend too much time in bed.
I am just so PISSED OFF at having to constantly justify the pain I am in and having to beg my Doctor's to help me. I don't take it unless I need it. I don't consider myself an addict by any means. It felt like they were cutting corners in the hospital and didn't even put me on the pump and this was after having to lay flat on my back leaking spinal fluid for 48 hours. I've been down the same route with injections, pt and pain clinics. They're all the same.
The surgeon told me that the surgery may not give me any relief from the back pain and he was right. The pain is worse now than ever. I know my own body and believe I should be feeling better than this by now. Without pain meds, I am going to have to consider a wheel chair to go anyhwhere. I am just so disappointed with these results. I know it is still early but, this is my fourth spine surgery.
It scares the hell out of me to know that this isn't going to change. The thought of living the rest of my life like this is more than I can handle. I have lost almost everything. Family and friends don't know what to say so they don't bother to call anymore and it is very hurtful. I try very hard not to talk about it but, it's written all over me. Sometimes I do need a shoulder to cry on and there's on one willing to take the time to listen. Because I don't have a life anymore, I feel like I have been left in the dust.
I called my PCP office this morning and the assistant told me that she will probably refer me back to the surgeon knowing that he doesn't want to prescribe anything and here we go again. :??