I'm still in shock, I know it was meant to intimidate me. The center has really bad reviews, but I hadn't read them (kinda wish I had). I have almost every time left there so depressed, in tears, and on a few occasions had the scary nurse that was very bullying. Every time they meet with me, they go over everything, and they act as though they are scrutinizing everything as though I am lying, even though my urine tests always come back telling them exactly what I am saying, which I guess is the reason that I am still in the program. I told my spouse I think that they are told to make a face like they don't believe you, and make you feel like they are going to catch you in a lie, and even though I'm not lying, I always feel like I've done something wrong. So one day, I somehow came across reviews and was amazed. Almost all of the reviews were so bad, and almost all of them were saying that they would leave there in tears, sit in their car crying for awhile before they could drive home, and felt like criminals instead of a chronic pain patient treated with any kind of respect. The details were amazing, it was as though I could have written them, all of these reviewers were in pain physically, and after leaving the center, emotionally too! So the last time I was there, the scarier nurse came in and told me she'd been reading reviews online and asked me if I wrote one, and told me she was convinced I wrote one. I was shocked, and asked her if she was asking all the patients. I told her I felt like I was being attacked, and harassed, and that I didn't feel comfortable anymore. She asked me if I was happy with the "care" from the center, and of course I felt really intimidated, and told her things had been okay. But I also told her that at that moment, I felt really unhappy and wanted to leave. She told me I couldn't leave yet, then printed something out and handed it to me. I briefly looked at it, it was from a review site. She told me we were going to talk about it. I told her I didn't want to because I felt like she was just trying to upset me, and that if I was going to write a review then, I would write that I was really unhappy that I was being forced to tell her if I wrote a review or not. She told me if I didn't like it, then to take my business elsewhere, go find somewhere else to treat you. I was, and still feel, so in shock. I don't and maybe won't ever feel comfortable if I want to write a review. I know when I read reviews that I need to read cautiously, and that some may be written by the "seller" and some may be reviews that aren't just. But then there are some that you need to decide if they are true or not, and I have always read through, and trusted a lot of them when buying things, or using services (wish I had read them before going to this one!!!) I now feel like I can't write one while going because I may be forced to tell them if I did write one or not. They hadn't had me sign a gag order when I started there, but I do feel like they were trying to get me to tell them yes or no, and she was forcing me to tell her and that I couldn't leave until I told her if I did, and I wonder how many patients they are doing that to, and if they plan on hitting patients with libel, slander, or whatever (I read a doctor sued a patient who reviewed him). Either way, I never left there happy, always felt demoralized, was told I had to take all of my pain meds each day, and if it wasn't in my urine, I would be in trouble. I asked if I had less pain, could I take less, because I was worried about becoming physically dependent. They told me I had to take them all. So now I find myself stuck, in extreme pain because it's never truly been cared for, and have been on medication for so long, to make a new appointment (I have been calling around, and all the pain centers tell me they do not write prescriptions, only do injections, and I don't know how to find one that will either continue the pain meds, or help to come off of them, I don't know what to do!) My parents told me absolutely not to go back, and were so furious that I was treated like that. But they don't know how hard it is to find a treatment center that won't treat you like an abuser, but treat you like a human being in chronic pain. I am so depressed about all of this, I don't know how to get through each day, making more phone calls, terrified I will have to go back there because I am in so much pain, but terrified of having to see those pain "care" specialists again! I worry as I write this that they read this web site, and figure they probably do, so too scared to say too much. Is there anyone else that's been through something similar? Does anyone know how to deal with something like this? My husband was talking about patient advocacy. I feel so lost, in so much more pain recently, and feel stuck, and so scared! I would love to hear from anyone who can relate!