Hi everyone. So to update, I have chronic neck and upper back pain, nerve pain going down my left arm, have had RF with good relief but have not had that since 2009 and need it. I had a baby in between then and now and now my insurance is denying it even though they paid for the injections to confirm it would help. I had a "flare" after I fell and landed on my back and recently saw my doctor and she increased my medication dosages, didn't do any xrays or anything like that though. She thinks its just a flare up. I hope she's right but its been awhile since I fell and its not better. The medication is making me feel better though so thats good, its making me at least functional. And she was good with me, not at all implying any kind of drug seeking so I"m happy about that. I think I am just paranoid but here's why. See, I am an occupational/hand therapist and I work with OTs and PTs in my department. Today, something happened at work that sort of justifies my paranoia. So I am actually in the group of therapists that are going to start treating chronic pain patients in the new pain management program. One of my coworkers started talking about one of her patient's experiences with the new pain management doctor. Apparently, he gave this patient, who is a lesbian, a 15 minute lecture on religion and on how President Obama's new healthcare program is so terrible! So then this therapist said, "well you have to be a certain kind of person to treat pain patients, you have to be firm with them" And she said that she thought she would be the one they will "walk all over" and one of my other coworkers said, "I couldn't put up with that population, they are so whiny!" And there was some other stuff said too. I sort of sat there with my mouth open, I was shocked and didn't know what to say. I mean these are my BEST FRIENDS and they know that I have chronic pain! They know about my past RFs and I have been on restrictions from time to time. They have NO IDEA what we go through on a daily basis. How getting out of bed, dressed, and ready to go is a task in and of itself and it can't even be accomplished if we didn't have our meds which they accuse us of being addicted to. I am so hurt by their comments! And I think they had no idea that they hurt my feelings but it justified my feelings of paranoia. And the funny thing is, about 1/2 hour earlier, my friend Amy was saying how she thought the surgeon I work with discriminated against overweight people and she said she thinks its terrible and she knows she is sensitive to that issue because she is overweight. It was so ironic that just 30 minutes later, here she is being inconsiderate toward ME! And I have never said anything inconsiderate about overweight people. I just don't know what to think! I think nobody really understands and I am just alone in this issue and its an invisible disability, but nonetheless a disability so I just have to suffer alone. Anyway, just wanted to vent. I'm glad its a weekend so I have a couple days to get over it before I have to see those kind compassionate coworkers again!
Oh, and my doctor wants me to do another round of therapy so now I have to pick which one of these insensitive people I should let put their hands on me! I picked one, and she wasn't in the room at the time, but even her I have heard say things about "this population." She has been known to not even meet the patient before commenting on their medication list. Nice! But I have to pick someone, so maybe she will change her mind about how this population is when she treats me.