I have been a member here for over 3 years. Initally used this forum for info prior to my L4/L5 spinal fusion(Oct 26/09) and info after and encouragement for fellow spineys going through surgery during the same time. Over the last year or so I have been pretty quiet. Althought I read everyday and look for inspiration to keep going. But going on the idea of "if you don't have anything good to say, don't say anything at all". Some history, L4/L5 fusion went ok, out of the hospital in 2 days. No brace, minimal drugs after. Surgery was for major stenosis, cental, foraminal, and lateral. But after about 2 weeks major burning pain much worse than before surgery. Right leg much weaker, strange sensations in both legs.E.I. burning, tingling, some numbness, not in a particular dematone pattern, feet at times will swell. This has been going on for 2 1/2 years. I keep going, so much that I now have a labral tear in my right hip.(My gluteus medius dosn't have the strength). No amount of exercises help, toe ups,glutes, stretching etc. Various studies, CT/MRI don't point to anything specific, no significant perineural scarring, some scar tissue does abut the L5 nerve root blah blah. Tear at L5/S1. I don't even know if I am fused.( No BMP) Surgeon says that my screws have not moved. My surgeon was done with me after 7 months. "Try to keep active, sometimes these things burn themselves out", were his words. EMG studies say that I have a slight nerve damage of L5 nerve root. But why all these other weird symptoms? I have tried all the nerve meds, don't work or have so many side effects. 1 epidural. Cymbalta, Effexor, Pristiq(no help). I have not been on opiates. I am not against them but I have left them as a last resort. I deal with pain daily at about 7 unless I lay down. Of course anxiety, depression are all there. Can't get a second opinion(this is Canada), lucky to get a first opinion. I have been referred to a pain clinic which can take up to a year. I am wondering if I have arachnoiditis but no one has mentioned this on my imaging studies and I gather sometimes they don't unless it's really evident. I am posting this because I can hardly keep going. Days, weeks, months have no meaning. I don't know how some members keep going. I am about ready to give up. What do members think I should do? Like my subject said, I'm done.