Let me start by explainging my situation. Almost 2 years ago I hurt myself at work. I have a very labor intensive job, I work for a municipal Water Department. I have to do alot of things that involve working with my upper body like yesterday we had a water main blow out so from 7 in the morning until 8 last night I was working on fixing that which consisted of digging 8 feet down by hand shoveling knee deep in mud and water, once we got down to the main I had to take a big demolition saw bend in all sorts of awkward positions to cut the main and bolt on a new piece of plastic main with 2 big couplings. Then we had to backfill the entire hole patch and clean up the road and bring everything back to the shop and clean up. The day before I was working on fixing 3 fire hydrants which involved lifing them about head high several times the lightest one weighing about 60 lbs, and doing things like that are the normal routine of my job. Anyway 2 years ago doing a leak I hurt my neck and couldnt move it at all and had to go to the emergency room. I was stupid and because we were already a person down at work as soon as I could move my neck which was about 4 days later I went back to work, without really knowing what was wrong with me and still in alot of pain. Sice I hurt my neck I have been getting pain killers from my PCP so that I can basically live a normal life and continue to go to work everyday. Even then it is very difficult, along with the pain I get extreamly bad tension headaches I can feel shooting from my neck up the back of my head and into my forehead, along with pain from my neck shooting into my shoulder blade and down my arm. In the last 2 years I have grown tolorences from the medication I started with 10/325 Percocet 4 times a day which went up to 20mg oxycodone and now just started 30 mg oxycodone all 4 times a day but my pcp only pescribes me 100 pills a month which is really only a 25 day supply. Lately I could tell he has been getting aggraved because I have been going to see him more often because the pills wernt working as well this was before he upped it to 30 mg. I often hear things from him such as I wish you could see my MRI of my disks they are much worse then yours and I dont need the pills, or your MRI doesnt look that bad I dont know why your in such pain, and if your job is causing you all the pain then quit. I have always been 100% honest with him about everything and the last couple of times I could tell he has been getting more and more aggravated every time I come in. Well about a week ago I went and he tried switching me to oxycontin 40mg twice a day which did not work for me at all so I brought the bottle in today to show him that its not that the pills are gone but its just not working so i wanted to go back to the 30 mg and he flipped out on me. I tried explaing that the reason I have gone in so much is because I am trying to get the medication right so I can live a normal life, and get my pain under control. I am engaged to a wonderful understanding woman and a little under a year ago we bought our first house togeather, and I feel horrible when I come home from work some days and am in bed crying my eyes out because I am in so much pain from overdoing it at work or by working on the house and I feel horrible that I cant always be there for her and it seems like its always about me and my pain and not about her. I tried telling this to my dr and he kept flipping out and started saying that if my job is causeing me this much pain I need to quit and hes had enough so I said well can you refer me to a pain management dr and he said "those dr.s honestly dont want to deal with patients like you that they just need to write scripts for they send them back to the PCP dr.s so they dont have to deal with you" I then tried telling him that I am just trying to get my pain under control until I can find something that works for me ( I have tried PT, had 3 Epidural Injections already none have worked, saw a nerosurgen who was the one that suggested the shots, he talked to me for all of 5 min and didnt seem to care when i asked him if i should be working he didnt even ask what I did for a living and said yes you should be fine to work). My PCP even drug tested me last week when I came to see him which came back with nothing in it other then the oxycodone that he pescribes and it made me feel like he doesnt trust me. After all the he said that he doesnt think I need this medication anymore and hes going to start tapering me off down to nothing within the next 4 months and I am going to do it his way or he will just compleatly cut me off. after that he looked at me and his exact words were "you need to quit being a p*ssy and man up and deal with the pain". I was absoultly shocked and I still cant believe it. All I am trying to do is make it so I can get my pain to a manageable level so that I can continue to work and so I can be there for my soon to be wife and just live a normal life. My dr made me feel like I was a horrible person and that I am doing something wrong. I'm sorry that this is so long I guess I just had alot to get out. Am I wrong? I think I have a good head on my shoulders I bought my first house at 24 (i'm 25 now) I have had a very good job and work very hard for the last going on 5 years, I have a wonderful woman that I am going to spend the rest of my life with. I have always been honest with him and he doesnt believe me. What should I do? I am at a loss, thank you for reading any suggestions are greatly appreciated.